I watched an old episode of Intervention and this is probably the worst episode I've ever seen. This girl has been an alcoholic for seven years and uses pain killers. I guess six months before either the recording or the airing of this episode she was contacted by police and got her world f-ing ROCKED! They showed up and showed her videos of a guy RAPING HER and she had NO F-ING CLUE!
I cannot even imagine going through something like that. HTF does one allow oneself to go that far below rock bottom that she can't even remember being raped because of her own drug and alcohol abuse. Being date raped is a whole other story that I'm not touching on here because that is not voluntary in the sense that you know what you are exposing yourself to voluntarily when you use alcohol or drugs. Seeing oneself being raped in a video taped by the guy who did it to you is quite the shattering piece of information. I know it would tear my life apart. Still though, I'm still extremely shocked at the simple fact that this woman did not stop drinking or using pain medicines after discovering what happened to her while she was so far gone off them. She in fact made her problem even worse. Obviously this has been her only coping mechanism that she thinks works best for her but how can you NOT WANT TO CHANGE THAT when you find something out like that?!
Maybe I should not have watched it. But these are real issues. Issues that we like to pretend that they don't exist. I feel sad. I can pray, but I wonder what will ever come out of it... I'm so messed up in my head, it ain't funny. A part of me just wants to reach out and love on these people. If there is a God, I pray that He will reveal himself to people who hurt so bad that don't know night from day let alone right from wrong or good from bad.
I really truly hope that if anyone is ever in her shoes that he or she would realize that they need to make some serious changes in their life if they was ever informed that they had been raped without being aware of it in any kind of way. I hope that if they couldn't figure that out on their own that their parents, family, friends would make them learn it involuntarily.
We spend a lot of time digging ourselves out of the holes that we dig ourselves into throughout our entire life. I know if I was where she is at. . .I would be desperate for someone to help me dig myself out. I have to say that if any of my friends or families were at where she is I would do everything I could to save them even if that's the last thing that they want. I couldn't let myself live with the fact that I didn't do everything I could for them if I didn't.
VERY HURT - UPSET - CANT REASON right now!!!
I WISH I KNEW WHAT TO DO...EVEN IF IT WAS THROWING JUST ONE STAR FISH BACK INTO THE OCEAN...
I cannot even imagine going through something like that. HTF does one allow oneself to go that far below rock bottom that she can't even remember being raped because of her own drug and alcohol abuse. Being date raped is a whole other story that I'm not touching on here because that is not voluntary in the sense that you know what you are exposing yourself to voluntarily when you use alcohol or drugs. Seeing oneself being raped in a video taped by the guy who did it to you is quite the shattering piece of information. I know it would tear my life apart. Still though, I'm still extremely shocked at the simple fact that this woman did not stop drinking or using pain medicines after discovering what happened to her while she was so far gone off them. She in fact made her problem even worse. Obviously this has been her only coping mechanism that she thinks works best for her but how can you NOT WANT TO CHANGE THAT when you find something out like that?!
Maybe I should not have watched it. But these are real issues. Issues that we like to pretend that they don't exist. I feel sad. I can pray, but I wonder what will ever come out of it... I'm so messed up in my head, it ain't funny. A part of me just wants to reach out and love on these people. If there is a God, I pray that He will reveal himself to people who hurt so bad that don't know night from day let alone right from wrong or good from bad.
I really truly hope that if anyone is ever in her shoes that he or she would realize that they need to make some serious changes in their life if they was ever informed that they had been raped without being aware of it in any kind of way. I hope that if they couldn't figure that out on their own that their parents, family, friends would make them learn it involuntarily.
We spend a lot of time digging ourselves out of the holes that we dig ourselves into throughout our entire life. I know if I was where she is at. . .I would be desperate for someone to help me dig myself out. I have to say that if any of my friends or families were at where she is I would do everything I could to save them even if that's the last thing that they want. I couldn't let myself live with the fact that I didn't do everything I could for them if I didn't.
VERY HURT - UPSET - CANT REASON right now!!!
I WISH I KNEW WHAT TO DO...EVEN IF IT WAS THROWING JUST ONE STAR FISH BACK INTO THE OCEAN...
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